Rise week 5 - Some essence

We are a group of three.
One is performing the other two are watching.
There is the stage, the audience and the
performer's theme.
Each theme / performer gets five minutes.

I show my theme, I watch the others.
Then we shall go for a second round.
We are told to stick with our theme and to
take it more into the extreme.
More extreme!
That's at least what I understand.

No, I can not do this, is my first thought.
I can not going / developing it more into it's extreme.
If I do so then I am going to get injured.
I was already on the edge.
I already hurt myself today.
I am concerned.
Thinking desperately.
I make myself aware about the fact that this  is a workshop for performers, not for suicidals.
I say to my self, if your body is in pain then it is not your way.
But there must be a way, your way somewhere / somehow!

I find a way to the extreme without finding myself in
the hospital later.
It requires a lot of courage to go it.
But  I trust my audience.
It works.

I feel it.
It's the extreme of my theme and, I feel it.
I am happy, I am in the finding mode, I am performing,
I am finding, I am on the right way.
It's new, it's unbelievable, it's just great.
It works, it's consistent, it's self containing,
it grows, it all makes sense.
It's here and now.
I feel it, I am in it, in the extreme,
the essence,
the real life.
Five minutes over.

Standing up, taking a deep breath,
once again a deep breath,
and let it go in order to take it with me,
now.

gotcha!


A finding about essence:

(1) Each theme / idea / material has an essence.
(1.1) There is always more than one essence.
(1.2) Each essence is different.
(1.3) Each essence is right.
(2) The essence emerges from the material through change.
(2.1) One can not search for the essence.
(2.2) The essence can only be found.
(3) Each material contains all the essences of life.